Ignorance -Barrier to Empowerment

Wow!It's Monday again. Just came back from 9th ICAAP, Bali. A bit tired and not in the mood to do work. So just curi some time to blog.

Recently something happen around me, both my relatives and friends. I think I wouldn't talk much about their stories, but what I would like to share here is a bit of my thoughts since the incidences.

Those who are close to me these few years will know that I am very much involved in HIV/AIDS, gender, Sexual and Reproductive Health work. I have knowledge (although not the expect int these fields), I know what to do; where to go and so on when we have problems with all these issues. However, sometimes I am sad when I couldn't help those around me when they have all these problems. I, sometimes, can hardly talk to them even though I want to.

I just wonder why people just don't want to listen. I don't want to talk long-winded. I just wanna give referral. I understand people sometimes are not comfortable sharing problems with someone they, but at least give me a chance to tell you where to seek help or what other options are available. Even just this, a lot of times, I was being turned down. They just don't want to listen! and this is why I am so frustrated.

They will always say "you are so lucky, you are educated, you are empowered. That's why you can do whatever you want. I wish that I can be like you" Yes. I was trained. I am empowered. But then part of my job is also to spread the message out to all out there. But if you keep your ears shut, how would that message go through? You say you wanna be like me, but if you don't wanna listen, It will not work.

I don't know how it will work, I am still figuring out. I really wish that I could help. really, really... But the fact is that i can't help at all. That's why I am so so so frustrated....

被骗啦！

最近这阵子比较忙哦！连续三天都到市区去开会。可是虽然忙啊忙， 身边总有人会为我带来甜蜜和欢笑。

话说来就是星期四嘛，就是“窃听风云”上映的那天，就约了同事们去看戏。原本越好要看“窃听风云”的。可是，我整天都在KL开会，所以他们就先去买票咯。他们告诉我是看The Ghosts of Girlfriends Pasts，我就笨笨得相信了，说“无所谓啦！都可以。”

结果进了戏院，看着看着，我发现怎么开场的时候介绍制作、监制等等都是华人。我还笨笨得问他们“我们到底有没有进错戏院？”。问着问着，他们渐渐露出诡异的笑脸，我就知道我被骗了。

我觉得自己好笨哦！尽然上当了。可是想回来，他们是知道我想看“窃听风云”，所以陪我去看得。虽然这套戏没有我想象中那么好看，虽然我被骗了，可是心里就有种甜蜜感动地感觉。所以，谢谢咯！