Monday, November 9, 2009
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
学生发成绩单了。今天如往常一样去教补习。看了学生的成绩，整体上来讲算不错，都有进步。可是今天我发现原来在老师眼里，学生在试卷里所犯的错都是不应该的。今天，我边在看学生的试卷，边念着她说“你怎么可以这么粗心犯这样的错！我不是教过你了吗？”
回想以前当我还是学生的时候，当老师也一样向我抛出这样的一句，我心里会想说“老师，你以为我们是机器吗？能记完所有的东西哦！” 现在我何尝不是一样这样的念着我的学生。在回家的途中，我突然有个酱子的想法 - 到底是做老师的要求的太多，还是做学生的不争气呢？
我觉得这是鸡和鸡蛋的问题吧！不会有答案的。可是却让我联想到这点教育制度也该负上部分责任吧。为了证明马来西亚学子的能力，课程逐渐变深了。有时候我真的觉得小学生们根本就跟不上。就是这种不明白也得把课本背得滚瓜烂熟的概念，大学生变得像电脑一样，不需要明白，只需把它原原本本的存起来，考试时open出来就可以了。
课程日益加深，但老师的素质学越来越差。我没否定大马还有很多很好的老师，可是我觉得相比之下，我以前念书时的老师好像比较有责任感。为了舒缓师之荒的问题，政府大量吸取教师，却没有给予最佳的训练。据我在试训的朋友所说，教官也只草草了事，只求交差，不求素质。这样老师又怎么会灌输同学们正确的求学态度呢？曾经好几次我查看学生的学校作业簿，作业里错字连连，老师一样画了勾，不是一次两次的事情，而是很多次了，而且是不同的作业哦！我心里有了个疑问“到底有多少个老师是认真的再改作业？”
回想以前当我还是学生的时候，当老师也一样向我抛出这样的一句，我心里会想说“老师，你以为我们是机器吗？能记完所有的东西哦！” 现在我何尝不是一样这样的念着我的学生。在回家的途中，我突然有个酱子的想法 - 到底是做老师的要求的太多，还是做学生的不争气呢？
我觉得这是鸡和鸡蛋的问题吧！不会有答案的。可是却让我联想到这点教育制度也该负上部分责任吧。为了证明马来西亚学子的能力，课程逐渐变深了。有时候我真的觉得小学生们根本就跟不上。就是这种不明白也得把课本背得滚瓜烂熟的概念，大学生变得像电脑一样，不需要明白，只需把它原原本本的存起来，考试时open出来就可以了。
课程日益加深，但老师的素质学越来越差。我没否定大马还有很多很好的老师，可是我觉得相比之下，我以前念书时的老师好像比较有责任感。为了舒缓师之荒的问题，政府大量吸取教师，却没有给予最佳的训练。据我在试训的朋友所说，教官也只草草了事，只求交差，不求素质。这样老师又怎么会灌输同学们正确的求学态度呢？曾经好几次我查看学生的学校作业簿，作业里错字连连，老师一样画了勾，不是一次两次的事情，而是很多次了，而且是不同的作业哦！我心里有了个疑问“到底有多少个老师是认真的再改作业？”
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
今天心情没有很好。一大清早就要去KL开会，又不会路，找的google maps来又碰上堵车。开会的时候就更不爽啦！有时候真不明白有些人，从不懂得尊敬他人但却友要求别人时时刻刻都尊敬他。拜托！我虽然资历浅，但并不代表我没有用。
有些人真的很奇怪，有什么事情为什么不能内部解决，非要闹到funder那里不可？当然我没有想要剥夺他投诉的权利，只是如果你没有和我们商量好就在funder面前说一些有的、没的，那你是想挑拨离间，还是想凸显你的存在，还是存心破坏我们的形象。不管怎样，我讨厌酱子的工作环境和态度。他几乎每一天都在影响我的工作情绪。不管他怎样骂我、对我没礼貌，最后我还低声下气的call他，尝试跟他沟通。可是还是造来不善的对待。有时还夹在中间做三文治。我讨厌酱子！很讨厌！很讨厌！我每次都尝试用中立的态度，企图想要保持良好的合作关系。到最后还是徒劳无功，有时真的让我很pek chik！！！
有些人真的很奇怪，有什么事情为什么不能内部解决，非要闹到funder那里不可？当然我没有想要剥夺他投诉的权利，只是如果你没有和我们商量好就在funder面前说一些有的、没的，那你是想挑拨离间，还是想凸显你的存在，还是存心破坏我们的形象。不管怎样，我讨厌酱子的工作环境和态度。他几乎每一天都在影响我的工作情绪。不管他怎样骂我、对我没礼貌，最后我还低声下气的call他，尝试跟他沟通。可是还是造来不善的对待。有时还夹在中间做三文治。我讨厌酱子！很讨厌！很讨厌！我每次都尝试用中立的态度，企图想要保持良好的合作关系。到最后还是徒劳无功，有时真的让我很pek chik！！！
Sunday, October 11, 2009
在曼谷的经验
哇塞！在曼谷那么多天，最叫我难忘的事情就是 - 被angmoh当是Sex Worker （SW)。Gosh!!!虽然我穿的是短裤，但也不至于把我当成是SW吧！还是因为我独自走在曼谷的街头，他把我当成是寂寞难耐的人。真搞不懂！幸好在他的手还没搭上我的肩膀之际，我往另一个方向走去了。
不过曼谷倒是蛮不错的。除了Grand Palace，我还去了chatuchak market, Sun Lunn Night Market, Emporium, 还有还有在Sukhumvit的街头随意逛逛。除了高级的百货公司例如Emporium，其实在其他地方血拼还蛮便宜的，但要会讨价还价啦！记得我在买一个包包的时候，原本店员要我300baht一个，结果我一同样的价格买了两个。哈！
还有一个蛮“惊险”的经验， 那就是坐tuk tuk。Tuk tuk 其实是那里其中一种德士。可是它open-air的，比德士小辆，比摩多大辆。可是时机就乱乱冲、乱乱冲的，好恐怖哦！
有一样东西在曼谷蛮多的，就是路边食摊。几乎每一条小巷都有，而且满不错，可是那里的食物其实大部分都是豬肉。
终结来说，泰国是蛮不错的。如果想来个economic trip的话是个不错的idea。但要小心不要被travel agent/tour骗钱，还是自己到处“探险”比较好玩。
不过曼谷倒是蛮不错的。除了Grand Palace，我还去了chatuchak market, Sun Lunn Night Market, Emporium, 还有还有在Sukhumvit的街头随意逛逛。除了高级的百货公司例如Emporium，其实在其他地方血拼还蛮便宜的，但要会讨价还价啦！记得我在买一个包包的时候，原本店员要我300baht一个，结果我一同样的价格买了两个。哈！
还有一个蛮“惊险”的经验， 那就是坐tuk tuk。Tuk tuk 其实是那里其中一种德士。可是它open-air的，比德士小辆，比摩多大辆。可是时机就乱乱冲、乱乱冲的，好恐怖哦！
有一样东西在曼谷蛮多的，就是路边食摊。几乎每一条小巷都有，而且满不错，可是那里的食物其实大部分都是豬肉。
终结来说，泰国是蛮不错的。如果想来个economic trip的话是个不错的idea。但要小心不要被travel agent/tour骗钱，还是自己到处“探险”比较好玩。
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
在曼谷的第三天
今天是我在曼谷的第三天。今天不在一个人了，搬进大会安排的酒店后，有了一个来自菲律宾的室友。这件酒店比我之前住的那件home hotel好非常非常多，无论是空间、食物、厕所等，只有一样非常重要的东西downgrade了它在我心中的位置，那就是免费上网服务。一件比美五星级酒店的酒店，竟然没有free wi-fi。真是。。。连我之前住的那间home hotel都有，怎么这里没有呢？也许是这里的cultrure 吧！因为就连这里的Starbucks也是要付钱才能上网，突然觉得在马来西亚实在太幸福了！结果走到身水身汗， 才找到这件1baht/minute的网卡。sweats|||
昨天，原本一大早想去Grand Palace, Wat Arun, National Gallery, National Museum等地方，结果天不作美， 一大早就下起雨来了。等雨停了， 在办好check-in后，已经是十二点了。搭MRT再转BTS， 到码头已是一点多了。在乘船到另一个码头，从码头走到Grand Palace, my gosh...两点多了。到门口还差点被骗。有个男人说Grnad Palace已经关啦！你不能进去了。还有你穿短裙不能进的（明明本小姐的裙已到漆盖了！）我建议你到另一个神庙， 你攀一个级楼梯上去便可以观看曼谷风景了。他叫了旁边那个tutu，叫他在我去， 还说只是3obaht而已。幸好我坚持，说我自己走去，结果呀一脸不爽！
怎知道我走到另一个入口， 看到许多老外穿得比我还要短从里边走着出来，心里就好奇然后走了进去。Security guard叔叔说你的裙子不会太短，可以进去。就算太短我们有sarong给你套着进去。幸好没被骗了！
Grand palace实在太妙了。It's really amazing!里面的建筑、雕像等， 都令人叹为观止。只是在里面便花了好几个小时。出来一是四点多了。惨！来不及去Wat Arun了！算了，下次再来！
好啦！该走了。回马来西亚在写。这里每一分钟都是钱。Bye!
昨天，原本一大早想去Grand Palace, Wat Arun, National Gallery, National Museum等地方，结果天不作美， 一大早就下起雨来了。等雨停了， 在办好check-in后，已经是十二点了。搭MRT再转BTS， 到码头已是一点多了。在乘船到另一个码头，从码头走到Grand Palace, my gosh...两点多了。到门口还差点被骗。有个男人说Grnad Palace已经关啦！你不能进去了。还有你穿短裙不能进的（明明本小姐的裙已到漆盖了！）我建议你到另一个神庙， 你攀一个级楼梯上去便可以观看曼谷风景了。他叫了旁边那个tutu，叫他在我去， 还说只是3obaht而已。幸好我坚持，说我自己走去，结果呀一脸不爽！
怎知道我走到另一个入口， 看到许多老外穿得比我还要短从里边走着出来，心里就好奇然后走了进去。Security guard叔叔说你的裙子不会太短，可以进去。就算太短我们有sarong给你套着进去。幸好没被骗了！
Grand palace实在太妙了。It's really amazing!里面的建筑、雕像等， 都令人叹为观止。只是在里面便花了好几个小时。出来一是四点多了。惨！来不及去Wat Arun了！算了，下次再来！
好啦！该走了。回马来西亚在写。这里每一分钟都是钱。Bye!
Thursday, September 3, 2009
Extracted from a friend's friend of mine:
"You are suffering in this life, your tears have shown them to me; I had nothing, but with my will, shall I bring everything to you; I was weak, but I will be strong just for you.
"I walk on behalf of you, to trail the path before you;
Hold my hand, and follow me closely,
my dear."
Forever......"
被感动到了。一个男生爱的宣言。虽然只在部落格里看见，但却真的感动了我。爱人给的幸福看似简单，却如此捉摸不定。幸福的味道。。。越来越远。。。
"You are suffering in this life, your tears have shown them to me; I had nothing, but with my will, shall I bring everything to you; I was weak, but I will be strong just for you.
"I walk on behalf of you, to trail the path before you;
Hold my hand, and follow me closely,
my dear."
Forever......"
被感动到了。一个男生爱的宣言。虽然只在部落格里看见，但却真的感动了我。爱人给的幸福看似简单，却如此捉摸不定。幸福的味道。。。越来越远。。。
Monday, August 17, 2009
Ignorance -Barrier to Empowerment
Wow!It's Monday again. Just came back from 9th ICAAP, Bali. A bit tired and not in the mood to do work. So just curi some time to blog.
Recently something happen around me, both my relatives and friends. I think I wouldn't talk much about their stories, but what I would like to share here is a bit of my thoughts since the incidences.
Those who are close to me these few years will know that I am very much involved in HIV/AIDS, gender, Sexual and Reproductive Health work. I have knowledge (although not the expect int these fields), I know what to do; where to go and so on when we have problems with all these issues. However, sometimes I am sad when I couldn't help those around me when they have all these problems. I, sometimes, can hardly talk to them even though I want to.
I just wonder why people just don't want to listen. I don't want to talk long-winded. I just wanna give referral. I understand people sometimes are not comfortable sharing problems with someone they, but at least give me a chance to tell you where to seek help or what other options are available. Even just this, a lot of times, I was being turned down. They just don't want to listen! and this is why I am so frustrated.
They will always say "you are so lucky, you are educated, you are empowered. That's why you can do whatever you want. I wish that I can be like you" Yes. I was trained. I am empowered. But then part of my job is also to spread the message out to all out there. But if you keep your ears shut, how would that message go through? You say you wanna be like me, but if you don't wanna listen, It will not work.
I don't know how it will work, I am still figuring out. I really wish that I could help. really, really... But the fact is that i can't help at all. That's why I am so so so frustrated....
Recently something happen around me, both my relatives and friends. I think I wouldn't talk much about their stories, but what I would like to share here is a bit of my thoughts since the incidences.
Those who are close to me these few years will know that I am very much involved in HIV/AIDS, gender, Sexual and Reproductive Health work. I have knowledge (although not the expect int these fields), I know what to do; where to go and so on when we have problems with all these issues. However, sometimes I am sad when I couldn't help those around me when they have all these problems. I, sometimes, can hardly talk to them even though I want to.
I just wonder why people just don't want to listen. I don't want to talk long-winded. I just wanna give referral. I understand people sometimes are not comfortable sharing problems with someone they, but at least give me a chance to tell you where to seek help or what other options are available. Even just this, a lot of times, I was being turned down. They just don't want to listen! and this is why I am so frustrated.
They will always say "you are so lucky, you are educated, you are empowered. That's why you can do whatever you want. I wish that I can be like you" Yes. I was trained. I am empowered. But then part of my job is also to spread the message out to all out there. But if you keep your ears shut, how would that message go through? You say you wanna be like me, but if you don't wanna listen, It will not work.
I don't know how it will work, I am still figuring out. I really wish that I could help. really, really... But the fact is that i can't help at all. That's why I am so so so frustrated....
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